I’ve been trying to boot up properly for 2022. On the heels of Lunar New Year, I was doing pretty well, hitting all my marks, until this morning when I woke up feeling absolutely BLAH.
“BLAH” as a word encompasses feelings of lethargy and restlessness that grind against each other in a directionless buzz at the ground level of conscious thought. It makes it hard to focus on any one thing. I sometimes wonder if I’m dealing with some kind of neurosis but this kind of episode hits me occasionally enough that it hasn’t been that big of a problem.
But when it does hit (like today) I feel like throwing my whole day out the window and doing WHATEVER. I think it has to do with a lack of clear goals. It usually lands during a period of decision-making, when uncertainty and a plethora of options whirl around my head constantly, tempting me with this path or that. Choice paralysis.
(I’m working out a comics project. And the choice basically decides what I’ll be pouring all my time, effort and love into for the next few month. I have to admit, that’s a little anxiety-inducing.)
A bunch of thumbnails I did on the bus this morning, comic TBD.
The problem with working on your own stuff absent any outside input is the absolute freedom you have to do anything you could conceive of. And if there’s no single burning attractive option (which happens more often than I’d like) usually one choice is as good as the other.
Anyway, having said that, I’ll be trying to post more often on this blog. Unlike my other social channels, it’s a pretty private online notebook that I can access anywhere, so I want to make more of a habit of it. Obviously, still doing regular posts on Instagram and YouTube, but this where I’ll be thinking more out loud.
A couple of sketches I did last Sunday during a livestream.
Happy Tuesday! Hope you’re having a good week so far. 😁